{"href":"https://api.simplecast.com/oembed?url=https%3A%2F%2Fat-a-total-loss.simplecast.com%2Fepisodes%2Famy-carter-vZjgJupw","width":444,"version":"1.0","type":"rich","title":"Amy + Carter","thumbnail_width":300,"thumbnail_url":"https://image.simplecastcdn.com/images/ce6bfa4d-5c04-471d-a8fb-d5c6bfbb377e/3451b9a0-c22d-4cdc-a8c0-727dd89f43dc/living-20-instagram-20profile-20picture.jpg","thumbnail_height":300,"provider_url":"https://simplecast.com","provider_name":"Simplecast","html":"","height":200,"description":"Amy and I connected on Instagram shortly after her first and only child, Carter, was stillborn in July 2022. She is a total grief vibe as she still laughs, experiences joy and deals with her grief and coping in a way that is her own. Never receiving answers as to what happened to Carter, she has entered into pregnancy after loss. She has decided to relinquish control in some way and trust that things will work out. \n\nWe talk about\nHer story\nGrief after stillbirth\nGetting answers\nHer grief vibe\nOk to laugh and experience life again\nDenying the autopsy\nRespecting partners' wishes\nHer doctors being on top of this new pregnancy\nHaving a looming feeling but not with her rainbow\nHow the techs handle ultrasounds/not reading charts\nSharing information about our experiences and having people not think it could happen to them\nDrinking during pregnancy\nBelieving that this could actually happen and we end up with a living baby\nDeciding that it's ok to not be ok, BUT it's also ok to be ok. \nGetting up from the ground and not going back down. \nDigging ourselves out of the trenches\nAnd so much more...\n\nHit up Amy on Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/amyycampisi/"}