{"href":"https://api.simplecast.com/oembed?url=https%3A%2F%2Fhopefull-conversations.simplecast.com%2Fepisodes%2Fups-plus-downs-6Ail_P1_","width":444,"version":"1.0","type":"rich","title":"Episode 13:  Ups + Downs","thumbnail_width":300,"thumbnail_url":"https://image.simplecastcdn.com/images/2732b4fd-e462-4cd9-965c-16521c7d7f89/244a8687-4fdb-4eb6-a938-4135cdc038df/cover-art.jpg","thumbnail_height":300,"provider_url":"https://simplecast.com","provider_name":"Simplecast","html":"<iframe src=\"https://player.simplecast.com/f6e0bcdd-3bcf-47e3-98db-fb18fe8ac329\" height=\"200\" width=\"100%\" title=\"Episode 13:  Ups + Downs\" frameborder=\"0\" scrolling=\"no\"></iframe>","height":200,"description":"Trigger Warning:  Suicide and Suicidal Ideation\n\nUps + Downs is a film by freeski athlete Drew Petersen which chronicles his battle with his mental health.  Drew has a lifelong struggle with PTSD, bipolar disorder, brain injury, depression, and suicidal thoughts.  During a trip to Mt Hood, Oregon, he heard the crack of rock fall and was subsequently hit with a microwave size boulder.   After his accident the first thought of every day and the last thought of every day was that he should kill himself.  One day he was sitting on a bench watching cars drive by, crying all alone, powerless and consumed by his thoughts.  Sitting along in his room praying that he made it through the day until tomorrow."}